I was so excited to go to bed last night. I was feeling kind of sick, it had been a long day and I was just really really tired. I went to bed at about 11:00 and I could NOT fall asleep. It was really hot in my apartment, so I blamed that at first. You'd think I'd just get up and turn on the air. I'm not the type to worry too much about my utility costs but I think the reason I didn't turn it on at first was because I'd just been talking to my mom the day before about how my apartment is in a great shaded location and is always cool and I haven't turned the air on yet. I wasn't ready to give in. I finally did at about 12:15. My house cooled right down but it didn't help the insomnia. Here's some thoughts I had while tossing and turning.
-What is it about my daily patterns that I almost always look at a clock at 11:11 and 12:34? AM and PM.
-I love 'Spoon Me' frozen yogurt...I've heard 'Red Mango' is good too...I should try it...I wonder if they are environmentally friendly like 'Spoon Me' is...do you really care that much about the environment Andrea?...Well, I care, but I don't go super out of my way to care. But if I do something that makes my carbon footprint smaller I feel good for a second but lately I haven't gone too out of my way. I wish 'Spoon Me' was open right now.
-When did I start laying at an angle on my bed?? I should get a king size bed in case there is ever a man in here with me.
-I wonder if I would actually sky dive. I know I'd say I would do it and I'd go up in the plane but I wonder if I would jump...probably not, but maybe. I would probably get strapped to a strong hot man and just tell him not to tell me when we were going and just have him hold me and jump. (For the next 10 minutes or so I was singing: I went Skyyyyyy divin', I went -rocky mountain climbin', I went 2.7 seconds on a thing named something, and I loved deeper, and I, somethin bleeper, and I someday blah blah hope you get the chance, to live like you were dyin'...A song stuck in your head is a million times worse when you don't know the words.)
-Should my closets be organized tanks together, sweaters together, skirts together, etc. OR reds together, yellows together, blacks together, etc...
-I need to get my nails done. I should get them festive for the 4th of July. What should I do on the 4th of July?
-Who's idea was it to count sheep?? Did someone have a weird dream about sheep jumping over their bed, or was it a real shepherd who couldn't sleep one night so he went out to his barn and counted his sheep until he got tired.
-Lastly, I thought about this awesome/tragic dream I had the night before. I was married to this amazing guy and we had a little girl. She was so dang cute. I felt so completely happy with life in the dream. We had a beautiful home and things couldn't get better. I turned to my dream husband and said, "pinch me so I know this isn't a dream." He did. I said, "that didn't hurt, do it a little harder just so I can make sure this is real." He pinched me again, a little harder. Hard enough that it hurt and woke me up in real life. I was so sad when I woke up.
Finally around 3am i fell asleep.