Speaking of Garrett, I saw an ecard on pinterest that said, "I just punished my child for acting EXACTLY LIKE ME." Garrett is a strong-willed, independent free spirit. Just like me. And it drives me crazy. We're going though a bit of a rough patch, he and I, and I've had some moments I'm not proud of. I want to not yell at him. And I swear he knows it, and some days wakes up in the morning, his sole mission being to get me to do just that. A couple of days ago he Melted. Down. because I wouldn't let him have bubble gum and frappuccino for breakfast. Yesterday, while I was in the other room with Addie, (I'd left him in the dining room playing with a fold-out Curious George magnet board thing that I thought he was really in to), he climbed up onto the kitchen counter and ate an entire bowl of caramel popcorn (probably about 2 cups)! And right as I walked in the room to check on him he was licking his hands, and he looked up at me and said, "nom, nom, nom." (I can't get mad at that part, it was really good.)
On Monday we were heading out to go curtain shopping with my sister in law. (Same day as the bubble gum incident, actually.) I was late. Garrett was mad. Our van was in the shop so we loaded in the Explorer that doesn't have a DVD player in it (!), and the gas tank was beyond empty ..like, wow, there was enough gas to actually start it, empty. I drove to the nearest gas station with a screaming toddler, a surprisingly happy Addie, and me saying, "please oh please oh please make it" over and over again. And we made it! Have I told you that some parts of California have broken the 5 dollar a gallon mark the past couple weeks? But the gas station I pulled into was only $4.77, so I guess it was my lucky day! ha...ha... I turned to Garrett and very loudly and diplomatically explained to him that I needed him to BE QUIET for a minute while I got some gas. I was yelling as I dug through my purse...digging...digging...finally dumping everything on the seat.... No wallet. NO BLEEPING WALLET!!! I called Paul and calming said, "Will you please run upstairs and see if you can find my #@&*^$@ wallet?" He found it and I started driving home. Then it happened. (No I didn't run out of gas.) At a stop light I turned to Garrett and yelled at him louder than I've ever yelled at him before. He stopped crying. He looked at my, like I was a crazy mom possessed by satan. I apologized over and over and I think I cried a little. We made it home. We made it to the gas station. We made it to Annie's. Everyone was fine and it was an ok day. That night Garrett gave me a kiss good night and was walking down the hall with Paul to go to bed. I called him back and he came back to me. I sat down on the floor and took his hands. I told him again how sorry I was for losing my temper in the car. I told him that I want to try harder and be better but that I'm still going to make mistakes sometimes. But that I love him so much and that I always will. He gave me a little smile and then he turned and sat on my lap, snuggled in and gave me a hug. He got up and Paul took him to bed and I just sat on the floor and cried for a few minutes.
Then the next day I did what I told Garrett I would do, I tried harder to be better.